What's Wrong With Me?

Guest Post by PunditMom

I have  grand plans.  I have plenty of ideas.  I make lists.  I get myself geared up.

And then I can't get started. 

I have book ideas dancing like visions of sugarplums in my head. 

I have a vision of a house that's neat and tidy.  I fantasize about finding a way to get the family to the dinner table together with something a tad more nutritious than pasta with sauce from a jar.

Then after I do morning school drop-off, and maybe run an errand or two, I get home and immerse myself in my office and get stuck.

Sure, I can crank out the blog posts.  And there's satisfaction in that.  I'm a writer, after all, and there is the immediate gratification of seeing my words out there in the bloggy-sphere.  I'm even getting noticed a little bit for it, so that satisfies my ego.

But I've got to find a way to snap out of my funk and find another path. 

I don't want to stop this, but my life needs to be about more -- more comfy-ness in my home, more time focused on PunditGirl, more time to get the fingers moving on other stories I need to tell that can't be told in this virtual world.  Time to focus on me -- because at my ripe old age, I have finally figured out that no one is ever going to put me first except me.

So I'm going to start being more selfish about my time.  But I feel guilty about that.  My problem, I know.  I'm working on that.

Why am I writing this here and not at my place?  Because I still need to keep these thoughts and feelings private from certain people, but I still need to put them out here somewhere so I can get them off my chest and find the motivation I've been lacking for a long time to take care of me -- physically, mentally and emotionally.

Any thoughts on where I can find the impetus?  I know a body at rest tends to stay at rest.  I need to get this body movin'.

We've all been there or we all are there, so head over to PunditMom and show her the solidarity I know is there on this one.  An absolute treasure trove of solid posts, you'll be glad you did.  Just be prepared to get lost in the good stuff...