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June 17, 2008

A Garage to Grow Men In

Two weekends ago, we fulfilled every man's dream at our house:  We cleaned out our garage.  Our lives will never be the same.

Okay, that might be a slight exaggeration, but not by much.  When we moved into this house, we did it very quickly, more or less just bringing into the house the essentials and stacking the rest in the garage to unpack at a later date.

For instance, maybe next year.

Fortunately for us, my dad knows me better than I know myself, so he called us up and said that the garage was getting cleaned come hell or high water, so get on our wading boots.  No one can focus with half of their life piled up on the other side of the wall.

I agreed to this Mississippi-heat-endurance-test because he also mentioned the two most beautiful words in the English language:  pressure washer.DirtBusterPic   Aaaah, he would be bringing over his pressure washer, which meant I could blow the old-lady stink in the garage to high heaven and enjoy the endless satisfaction of blasting years of ground-in muck off of our driveway, one slice of the water wand at a time.

Five paragraphs later, I have now told you that we cleaned out our garage.  Look, when you bring gas-powered water blasters into the picture, my prose gets a little flowery, so bear with me.

An unexpected result of cleaning out our garage, other than eliminating the constant noise in the back of my mind, was that we started spending more time outside.  Much more time.  As a family.

It started when the boys realized that they could ride their bikes on their own again, alternating the heat of the driveway and the cool of the garage.  This clearly meant I would benefit from two exhausted boys ready to crash at naptime, so I grabbed the book I am currently reading, an Adirondack chair from the yard, a glass of ice cold Coke with crushed ice (dear God, I love having an ice maker again), and set up a little space of my own in our blindingly clean garage so that I could keep an eye on the boys.

Because no matter how many times you say, IMG_5272"Do not drive beyond the car in the driveway, boys!" all they hear is, "Feel free to ride your bikes in the street because you are magic and no cars will splatter you on the road."

This is how I want our summer to be:  all of us outside, sweating, enjoying the fruits of our labor, me reading books, enjoying our sons beat the tar out of each other, and my scaring the daylights out of them with threats of Blood on the Highway.

I'm trying to raise men here.  As far as I can tell, that begins by raising boys.  GooseBoys who play outside, dig in the dirt, climb trees, hit balls over fences, destroy the grass with sprinkler-produced mud puddles, and fight off the mosquitoes until the light has finally failed for the day.  Boys who get cuts and scrapes  and bruises, but are too busy playing to report them to their mother, let alone whine over them.

The book I am reading right now is Boys Should Be Boys by Meg Meeker, MD.  Boysshouldbeboys This will, quite frankly, be the theme of our summer.  Walking away from anything that requires electricity and embracing everything that eventually requires bandages.

I want to raise men.  Real men.  True men.  Strong men.  It starts now.  It starts in this garage, extends to the make-shift ball diamond in our backyard, drifts to the creek full of crawfish behind our house, and hopefully takes root in the core of our sons.


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May 08, 2008

I Am Your Very Own Dichotomy.

Occasionally, I just walk out of the house and leave the family to fend for themselves.  I grab my purse, my phone, and my keys, yell something like, "Good luck, suckers!" over my shoulder, and hit the road.

I am a road person.

The other night, I did just that.  It had not been a particularly difficult day, but it had been a long couple of weeks.  Maguire came home from work and my heart unexpectedly slipped out the door behind him as he entered.  I had no choice but to follow.

I haven't mentioned this, but I have a new car.  A "new to me" car.  Guess what it is?  You'll never guess.  Moosh?  You might know.

It's a white Volvo V70 wagon.  My dream car. 

Of course, it is not new.  I bought it for very close to an even trade for the land yacht that was my Dad's old emerald green Lincoln Towncar.  I suspect there is a hamster in the engine running around frantically taping everything together, laughing in a bewildered way about how I could be so blinded by the boxy loveliness so as to not notice that I was being taken...  but it is mine.  I finally have my own car again.

And I work it hard.  In particular, I work the CD player.  Haven't had one of those in years.

The soundtrack for my solo escape road trip along the Mississippi Gulf Coast beaches Anidc_2 the other evening was Ani DiFranco's Canon, a 2-disc compilation of some of her best songs.  My husband introduced me to Ani DiFranco in college and I was sold immediately and ever since.  One of the only performers I never tire of, and I get tired of music shamefully fast.

Fueled on by Ani's voice berating government, penises, and Righteous Babes who have their panties on a little too tight, I made my way along the scenic beach highway.  One thing I love about the Mississippi Gulf Coast is that from Gulfport to Bay St. Louis, there are almost no structures built on the beach-side of the highway.  Drivers are afforded unobstructed views of the water for miles.

This makes for a fine brainstorming environment.  I busy part of my mind with driving, just enough to keep the random, distracting noise at bay, and leave the rest of my mind to solve solve solve.

On this particular evening, I was unaware of any unresolved issues for which I was setting out to solve.  However, an hour into the drive, just as I was making it across the Bay St. Louis bridge from Pass Christian, the tears began to fall.

They were those hot tears, those silent tears, the ones that just drop drop drop.

The ones that surprise you.  The ones that have been waiting, silently, patiently, and of which you were too busy to be aware.  Until they find the break.

I would love to be able to tell you why I was crying.  I do not know.  It was our internal release valve, I think.   No one thing in particular, it was just time to relieve some pressure.

So I drove.  And I cried.  And I listened to Ani DiFranco.

I thought about how I never listen to music anymore.  Since living in New Orleans, I have become an avid talk radio listener.  It started with the New Orleans station WRBH, Radio for the  Blind and Print Handicap.  They would read books on air, as well as magazine articles, but my favorite was the show on which they read the drugstore ads.  Literally.  It was hilarious.

The best show was on a day when a little old lady was reading the Rite Aid ads and said, "Let's see, you can get 300 count Vitamin C for...  let me see...  oh, shoot, I can't read that small print.  Just go in and tell them you want the Vitamin C deal."  The irony was so sweet, I can't even tell you.  I just wanted to kiss her.

Nevertheless, it hooked me on talk radio.  Glennbeckbook Now I listen to shows like Glenn Beck and Rush Limbaugh.  They are on when I am in the car during the day, so they are my guys.  I don't always agree with their politics, but I am never disappointed in the discussion.  I welcome the questions they force me to consider.

Ani DiFranco is a master at that.  She does not disguise her politics and pleads for you to open your eyes.  She makes me face social problems I might otherwise not consider.  She invites me to question my beliefs.

Glenn Beck and Rush Limbaugh might be two of the most conservative voices in the media today.

Ani DiFranco might be one of the most liberal voices in the greater media today.

They share my ear equally.

They propel my voice equally.

And their opinions could not be more disparate.

“The test of a first-rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposing ideas in the mind at the same time, and still retain the ability to function.” 
F. Scott Fitzgerald

I see the discussions in my comments sections regarding politicsRushcigar You ask each other, "Is it possible to be socially liberal and fiscally conservative?"  "Are not conservativism and liberalism mutually exclusive?"  "How can you straddle this fence?"

These questions can easily apply well beyond the political boundaries.

When I posted the photo of my shoes in Summer Shoe Choices:  I Am a Punk Rock Florida Retiree, I wasn't really asking you what shoes I should wear to San Francisco.  I was sharing with you the dichotomy that is me.  That is all of us.

We are so much more than labels.  We are so much more than conservatives and liberals, Rebublicans and Democrats, mothers and wives, bloggers and writers, consumers and marketers.

So I listen to Glenn Beck with ears wide open.  And I savor the moments when I listen to Ani DiFranco, as I feel her words physically enter my heart.

"I use my dress to wipe up my drink.  I care less and less what people think." 

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I drove along the beach as evening turned to night, and I watched the wind blow thin streams of sand across the road.  My headlights illuminated the sand as though it was fog.  I was driving through time itself. 

I drove along the waterline of Bay St. Louis, Mississippi, and I experienced all that is splendor and desolation.  Two years after Hurricane Katrina and one lot will be filled to the property lines with a magnificent reproduction of a Southern plantation home while the next lot will hold a FEMA trailer with a spray-painted plywood sign near the road that reads, "AllState and State Farm:  The Axis of Evil."

This is not my political statement.  This is not about that. 

This is about the complex labyrinth that is us.

And sometimes it makes me feel as though I am split down the middle.

Sometimes it makes me cry.

Sometimes it makes me rejoice.

Today it makes me reach out.  For no reason other than because I can.

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Camille Was a Lady.  Katrina Was a Bitch.

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October 12, 2007

Praise Jebus!

Good grief.  When I go down, I go down hard.  Didja think I was dead?  You did, huh?

That little bit of food poisoning seemed to magically manifest itself in every single member of my family by the end of the week, so you can imagine how far I was from being able to post or even look at the computer for a while there.  That, combined with Maguire starting a new job, and, well, it was a miracle that I remembered to breathe. 

This is what I looked like:

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Not pretty.  (by the way, that is the absolute most photoshopping-ish skillz my program is capable of...  pathetic, I know.)

Fortunately, we are all on the upswing and I am rarin' to go!  I have so much to catch up on, but I'm ready for it.  Lots to tell ya'll about, lots to share, lots to do.  Once again, I'll be Squatting here myself on Saturday, as I figured a guest blogger would be sort of silly when I am finally able to post again.  Just fun stuff this weekend and Maguire has given the me the "all's clear" to play online all I want, so I may actually be able to make a dent in my online to-do list.

Let's see...  what all have I missed?  I totally had a video planned for the Great Breast Fest via the League of Maternal Justice, but that plan got pooped on.  I had a bunch of stuff to tell ya'll about regarding TopBlogMag, but then my brain melted.  Ooh, and Cre8Buzz finally launched publicly, but I think I slept through it.  Ugh.  I'll get to it all, I'll get to it all.

By the way, if you've emailed me in the last couple of weeks, I promise, I'll get back to you.  I'm working on all of it this weekend.  Hang in there. 

Before I go back to reorganizing my life, I want to share one little bit of news with you, though:

This week, Maguire was sworn in as a member of the Mississippi Bar Association!  He is a real live MS lawyer, ya'll!  Look at how excited we all were after the ceremony:

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It has been an incredibly long road, much longer than we ever expected, but it has all been worth it. 

Okay, I'm not entirely sure, yet, exactly how it's all been worth it, but I'm sure I will feel like there was a damn good reason for this insane roller coaster sometime in the future.  Like when I'm thinking back on these last two years from my grand veranda on my gorgeous mansion overlooking some majestic live oaks and sipping a Mint Julep made by my private staff.

I'm so ready for that.  Now, where's my "Congratulations!  You are the wife of a lawyer!" check?

In the meantime, here is how we feel right now:

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Praise Jebus!  Rock on!  Hallelujah!  Amen!




September 11, 2007

Biscuits and Beer

I look good in BCBG Max Azria clothes.  Particularly the dresses.  So good, in fact (this is me, tongue in cheek), that I thought I would pack an incredibly cute one for our beach vacation with our favorite college-friends couple, Heather and Jarrod. 

This dress is darling, let me tell you.  It's a knee-length sleeveless number, in lightweight chartreuse material with a slight sheen that totally compliments the 1960's housewife cut, complete with two open front pockets.  Almost like an apron, only smashingly darling, with a fitted waist and A-line skirt.  Looks faboo with chunky Bakelite jewelry, finishing off the retro vibe quite nicely.  Perfect for a patio dinner overlooking the Gulf of Mexico over drinks and good conversation about how crazy we were in college.

Someone forgot to mention to me that three toddlers would be attending this dinner.

Three little boys, ranging in age from 1-3, do not mix with easily wrinkled, easily stained dresses.  They also do not mix with scenic dinners overlooking the water, unless you don't mind a lot of negotiations over meal choices, bites to be taken of those damn chicken fingers that you swore you wanted you little booger, and an endless acrobatic display of bending over to pick up toys dropped (or thrown, thank you Goose, you are hilarious) onto the floor.

Fortunately, I don't mind such dinners.  I just forgot that those would be the kind we would be having.

I'm not sure who exactly I thought would be babysitting our crew of dudes while the four of us went out together.  Swept up in anticipation of time with our old friends, I just overlooked that small detail.  And then I packed that cute dress.  With cute shoes.  And cute jewelry.  None of which were to be pieced back together during the mad dashes to grab anything clean out of the suitcase on the way out to The Crab Trap with purses laden down with "busy toys" rather than powder and lipstick.

Our lives are so different now.  Sometimes I do get caught off guard by how different.  I love it, but I also miss the old days.  I miss drinking with my friends while jockeying for position in front of the mirror, getting ready to go out at 10:30 at night.  Now, if I'm not in bed by 10:30, I want to cry.  I miss grinding with boy-friends on the dance floor, our feet sticking to spilled drinks on the ground, until we shut down the place.  Now I grind my teeth to keep from overreacting to the nth spilled juice drink of the day, making my floor a sticky mess that I'm supposed to clean up.  So different.  Good.  Wonderful.  But different.

A few days into our vacation, Jarrod said, "I don't feel like my vacation has even started."  I hear you, brother.  I don't know what I was expecting, as this was our first vacation with the boys, let alone our first vacation with another couple and their boy, but it in no way resembled what I used to think of as a "vacation."  I truly loved every minute of it, but it wasn't like vacations pre-offspring.

Particularly as a stay-at-home mom, our vacation felt more like every other day at home, except with sand.  And more noise.  And lots more water. 

It's not like the boys took a vacation from being toddlers.

The best difference was that these vacation days I had someone with which to commiserate.  Someone who met my overwhelmed sighs with a knowing smile and a mimed "let's strangled them, huh?" across the room.   I love Heather.

I think Heather and I were better prepared for this not-quite-vacation than the husbands were.  At least we knew how to make it through a day full of negotiations, tantrums, and messes.  Picture a day of negotiating with Donald Trump.  Now make him be drunk.  Then put him on the beach.  With a water gun.  And no nap.  That was our vacation.

Maguire and Jarrod were the Apprentices.  In this reality show, however, they wanted to be told, "You're fired."  Ha ha.  Very funny, man-boys.  But you aren't getting off that easy.  Our contracts here state that you will remain on the show until cancellation.  Those contracts being marriage contracts and cancellation being death.

So we adapted.  We lowered our expectations.  More specifically, we changed our expectations.  And we laughed.  A lot. 

And our vacation finally began.

After some serious negotiations with our own drunk adult Donald Trumps, Heather and I broke out for a girls' night out.  Because I like to stick with what works, we went to see SUPERBAD and then out to dinner, just the two of us.  The next night, we gave the men "Get Out of Jail Free" cards and, because they like to stick with what works, they hit Hooters.  Niiiiice.   Chicka Chicka YeYeah!

I used to revel in vacations replete with pastries and mimosas.  Now I relish vacations crammed with biscuits and beer.  And I love it.  And I love Heather and Jarrod for inviting us along.  Pants talks daily about "his new friend, E" and is clearly disappointed each and every day when I have to tell him that we won't be seeing them today.

We are absolutely looking forward to our next vacation as a family.  Hopefully, again, as an extended family.  Because it's after 9am and I could really use a biscuit and beer.

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August 29, 2007

Camille was a Lady. Katrina was a Bitch.

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The pictures you see throughout this post are of dead oak trees along the Mississippi Gulf Coast, turned into sculptures after their destruction.  A hurricane wiped out our coastline two years ago today.  It's reach was far and wide.  It's winds destroyed homes miles inland.  It's tornadoes destroyed neighborhoods miles inland.  Hours inland.  It's winds picked up the Gulf of Mexico and forced it into our homes.  Miles inland.  The Gulf of Mexico's waters found their way through our bayous, bays, and waterways.  Miles inland.

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It wasn't just the fools on the beach like me that lost everything.

Bodies of the victims are still being found today.  Did you know that?

We lost our home.  We returned from evacuation to find a bare slab of concrete.  But we aren't victims.  We refuse to be victimized.

Yet we still mourn.  We mourn it all.

Unlike a house fire that destroys your home, unlike the attacks on 9/11 that killed so many and destroyed the livelihood of even more, the effects of Hurricane Katrina stretched for miles.  For hours worth of miles.  We lost our homes, our jobs, our cars, our churches, our schools, our hospitals, our libraries, our public transportation, our grocery stores, our parks, our roads and bridges connecting our communities, our government buildings,  our museums, our historical landmarks...  we lost so much that we called home.   There was nowhere to go to escape the destruction.  Everywhere you went, you were reminded of what was lost.  There was no escape.

Two years later, the depression and suicide rates are on the rise.  Did you know that?

Drive down the beach today and you still find mostly...  nothing. 

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Bare slabs of concrete.  Half demolished plantation homes.  Hollowed out stores.  Hollowed out churches.  Fields of FEMA trailers full of sick families, choking on formaldehyde fumes, forced to remain because there is no affordable housing and they are still paying a mortgage on a slab of concrete.

People ask me all the time, "So, is everything getting back to normal down there?"  Simply, yes.  Simply, no.  We are working on rebuilding, but not the lives that we once shared.  We are rebuilding a very different Gulf Coast.  I think it will be for the better.  I think we will find a multitude of blessings, if we just open our hearts and our minds to recognize them.

I'm holding one in my arms right now.  Had I been home and organized, I never would have had Goose.  Yep, I have a hurricane baby.   

The Mississippi Gulf Coast will be better than ever.  Give it five years and see.  It will be amazing.  So much is already changing.  So many fabulous things are coming in, moving in, being built.  It will be beautiful.  It will be new.  It will be charming and inviting.

And there will be nothing stopping it from being wiped out all over again.

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There will be nothing stopping a massive wall of water and mile wide winds that last for hours from just wiping it clean off the map.  Again.

You decide to take a risk.  We decided to take a risk by moving to the beach.  We had just moved from New Orleans a couple of months before and thought a beach home would be fun while we decided where to lay our roots.  And it was fun.  For a minute. 

We will probably never return to the beach.  Nowhere near waters that can rise up and claim our home.  We will not risk it again.  It's too difficult, no matter how beautiful.Dolphintreeb

In case you were wondering, we did have insurance.  In fact, we had "hurricane insurance."  Unfortunately, I failed to realize that so-called hurricane insurance doesn't pay squat if, say, it rains during the hurricane.  All your stuff blown up into a tree?  "Well, it's wet, too, so we can't figure out what did the damage, ma'am.  Sorry.  No money for you."  Or, in our case, "Hey, where is your stuff?  All we see is a slab of concrete.  How are we supposed to know if you had any wind?  No money for you.  Now scram!  And stop calling us."

By the way, hurricanes are defined by their wind velocity.  It was called Hurricane Katrina.  Not Rainy Flood Katrina.  But whatever.  Oh, and yeah, that's some of our stuff up in that tree above the water line.  Guess some of those trained dolphins from the oceanarium must have kicked it up there with their flukes when they were washed into the Gulf.  No way we had wind.

But I digress.

We choose to remain here on the Gulf Coast.  Living anywhere near a coastline is a risk.  Yes, even those hotsy totsy New York City dwellers.  Nothing keeping them from being wiped out by Hurricane Vinnie.  And, no, there is nothing keeping Hurricane Boudreaux from wiping out New Orleans again, regardless of how high they build their levees.  No matter what they do to change their government.  No matter how many times Brad Pitt smiles in the 9th Ward.

But I bet you've heard enough about New Orleans today.

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So, if you would, do me a favor.  When anyone talks to you today about New Orleans, remind them that we are still here in Mississippi.  In fact, there are still some crazy folk over in Alabama along the coastline, too.  A hurricane wiped us out two years ago today and we are still here.  It wasn't our local government's fault, we don't have a crazy mayor to point fingers at, so it's not as interesting to talk about for the media, but it still happened.  A mighty wind done blew us down.  Took us out to sea.  Left us with nothing...

Except our manners.  Our pride.  Our determination.  Our anger.  Our spirit.  Our sadness.  Our charity.  Our gratefulness.  Our elbow grease.  And, yes, our hope.

So we make do with what we have.  We turn the dead forms of majestic oaks along the beach into beautiful sculptures and we do it with chainsaws.  Testaments to our determination and faith and hope.  Testaments to our ferocity and livid persistence.  We spit in the placid blue eye of Mother Nature.  We dare her to rear her powerful head again.  We take chainsaws to the scraps she leaves us with and we tell her to bring it on.  We're not leaving.  We'll take the risk and we'll rebuild again if we have to, and we'll do it ourselves.

In Mississippi, we pull ourselves up by our bootstraps and we forge ahead.  Let 'em talk about New Orleans  and their politics all day long.  We have work to do over here.  Stop your jabbering and pick up a shovel and a hammer.  It will be a long day, but it will feel good to sweat it out.  When we're done, the crawfish and beer are on me.

Pinch the tail and suck out the headThere's a hurricane party every time it blows!

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Img_5687b All governmental assistance politics aside, it is important for me to mention that the American Red Cross was an incredible help after Hurricane Katrina.  They drove around our neighborhoods providing hot meals to workers, volunteers, and weary young families that just didn't feel like eating another sandwich in the dark.   Seeing the Red Cross truck drive down our road was always a welcome sight.

We put aside our pride and accepted help from the Red Cross in the days after Katrina and now make it a priority to begin paying them back.   If you are looking for a solid organization to which you can donate, I highly recommend the American Red Cross.  I saw first-hand how they use the funds we donate and it was astonishingly refreshing. 

They didn't fix everything; they made it easier for us to survive while we fixed it ourselves.

Want to do more yourself?  Want to come visit me down here?  Check out the relief organization Hands On Gulf Coast.

*By the way, "Camille was a Lady" is a reference to Hurricane Camille in 1969.  The worst hurricane to destroy the Gulf Coast, before Hurricane Katrina.  While a more powerful storm than Katrina, it's duration was shorter and it's reach was not nearly as wide.  The size and duration of Katrina is what made her the worst natural disaster in the history of the United States.  Camille slipped in, tore up the place, and slipped out.  Katrina stuck around awhile, called us names and insulted our mammas.

The American Red Cross

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